It's a weird concept to think I'm going to be giving birth for the third time soon... yes, third time. A lot of people don't realise that even though Rocco was classed as a 'miscarriage', my body didn't actually realise so I had to deliver him myself. I went in to hospital to be induced, had full strength contractions (so bad I was crying and given morphine) and then delivered his body and the placenta afterwards.
It was similar to Sienna's labour in many ways but obviously very different as well. When Sienna was a few months old, my memories of her labour and delivery were exciting and I couldn't wait to do it again one day. After experiencing labour with Rocco, I guess it's no surprise that it has kind of 'tainted' the labour experience for me.
I'm excited to know I'm in labour again this time but I'm also scared of what might happen.. Rocco's is etched in my mind more so than Sienna's and it still has the fear and heartache attached to it. I feel like I'm going to be a lot more worried during the labour and constantly asking them to check if she's ok.. until she is in my arms crying, I feel like I'm going to feel really tense and a bit on edge.
I have been watching back over Sienna's labour and delivery videos to try and remind myself how amazing and worth it it will all be. I'm trying to be positive and not think of the things that could go wrong but of course it is so hard.
I know I have a lot of support from all my readers and viewers that have been following our journey so that is why I have decided to do 'live' updates on my Twitter, Instagram/Facebook this time round. I will let you all know when I'm in labour and try to update you as much as possible although Warren may have to take over if the pain gets too much towards the end! I feel like I will need your words of encouragement more than ever so that is why I have decided to share it this way this time instead of just announcing when she is here.
Here's my playlist of labour/delivery videos with Sienna if you fancy watching! We will hopefully film this labour as well depending how I feel :)