This is an open letter to all of my friends...you know who you are.
I wanted to write this post to you & for you. Let me start by telling you all this, I love you. I love you as much now as I did when we were 15, sitting on a park bench drinking a 2ltr bottle of 11% cider that cost us about £1.20 from the local corner shop.
I am sorry I don't see you as much these days but I can promise you it is not because I don't want to. I am just doing this thing called parenting right now & it keeps me pretty busy. I love it when you invite me out for drinks or to parties, events etc but I hate that I have to decline your offers on most occasions. If I can be there I will. Finding childcare is one thing but if you've ever had to deal with babies, toddlers or children on a hangover before you'll know that the last 2 jager bombs at 2am were just not worth it, let alone the 10 pints before that! Being a parent with a hangover is hellish.
This letter isn't a plea for you to understand my situation more or to offer me any sympathy, on the contrary actually. Its an acknowledgement from my perspective, that I haven't 'moved on' from our friendship nor have I 'got better' things to do, sure I have other things on my plate right now but in my head we're still the same boys we used to be, skipping school (stay in school kids), crashing house parties & sleeping on each others sofas weekend after weekend. I haven't forgotten about you or all of the amazing memories we have together so far, so please don't forget about me.
I'd love it if you wanted to get to know my kids and spend time with me & my family, but you're all doing you own things too & I want you to continue to do that. I will not put pressure on you to meet my kids or demand you spend time with them to 'prove' your friendship to me. I hope you would feel the same when I can't make it out next time. I know where you are if I need you and you know where I am. If you want me there, I'll be there when you get married, I'll be there when/if you have children, I'll be there for you whenever you need me most, I just can't be there with you every time.
Thanks for reading & I will see you all soon...Hopefully!